“The Flash Reverses Time” BY A. Van Jordan

My PTSD has been a constant companion of late. With that comes its sidekick OCD.

I am shattered inside; no.

I mean yes;

I AM shattered inside

it is a shattering that took place over time

a long time ago.

I never cease to amaze myself.

I can go about my life and leave the past be;

asleep or hibernating or wandering alone without bothering me.

My past wanders and I walk the other way.

Only sometimes I don’t.

Sometimes the past wears me like an overc0at and I carry it

heavy, itchy and hard.

A. Van Jordan writes:

“…our past doesn’t contradict our future;
they’re swatches of the same fabric
stretching across our minds,
one image sewn into another,
like the relationship between a foot and a boot,
covariant in space and time—
one moves along with the other,
like an actor in a shadow play—”
My past does move like shadow play.
It always is and every now and again;
my shadow boxes.
******
My past and I
*
“covariant in space and time”
*
Poets can put our life experiences to words that a shrink can not.
Poets can make sense of life when Psycho-babble can not touch it.
Poets give voice to our lives and our hearts and our triumphs
and our struggles.
I am posting poetry for National Poetry Month.
Poets have given my heart voice for since I was a child.
I salute every Poet.
I will return to writing the story of my mother’s alcoholics dementia.
Right now,
I will let the Poets ride this bus.
Peace,   Jen

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The Flash Reverses Time

By A. Van Jordan

DC Comics, November 1990, #44
“Never Look Back, Flash
Your Life Might Be Gaining On You”

When I’m running across the city
on the crowded streets
to home, when, in a blur,
the grass turns brown
beneath my feet, the asphalt
steams under every step
and the maple leaves sway
on the branches in my wake,
and the people look,
look in that bewildered way,
in my direction, I imagine
walking slowly into my past
among them at a pace
at which we can look one another in the eye
and begin to make changes in the future
from our memories of the past—
the bottom of a bottomless well,
you may think, but why not dream a little:
our past doesn’t contradict our future;
they’re swatches of the same fabric
stretching across our minds,
one image sewn into another,
like the relationship between a foot and a boot,
covariant in space and time—
one moves along with the other,
like an actor in a shadow play—
like a streak of scarlet light
across the skyline of your city
sweeping the debris, which is simply confetti,
candy wrappers, a can of soda,
all the experience of a day discarded
and now picked up
even down to the youthful screams of play
that put smiles on the faces of the adults
who hear remnants of their own voices
through a doorway leading back
to a sunrise they faintly remember.

A. Van Jordan, “The Flash Reverses Time” from Quantum Lyrics. Copyright © 2007 by A. Van Jordan. Used by permission of W. W. Norton & Company, Inc.

~ by Step On a Crack on April 22, 2012.

6 Responses to ““The Flash Reverses Time” BY A. Van Jordan”

  1. Jen, here’s the link about the “poem store”. http://www.npr.org/2012/04/17/150722541/the-poem-store-open-for-business

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    • DEBBY!

      I LOVE THIS! THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!

      I am going to poet this. Way to take it to the streets!

      thank you for the lead and for thinking of me.

      I am thinking of you and prayers are winging there way…

      XO Jen

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  2. hope all is well I miss ur posts.. 🙂

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    • Hey there YOU !

      I am in one of those bad brain places. I just can not seem to get it together. I know you get it times 100000.

      I am working my way back. Thank you for being here and for doing what you do!
      We need you…

      XO Jen

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  3. Interesting thoughts on the past. I love to hear your musings. Peace, my friend. I do so wish you peace.

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    • Heidi

      I swear You are like a warm Hug…

      I am finding Peace I am Chasing it down. Hmmmm

      Maybe I should think on THAT a bit Yes?

      I hope you are happy and healthy and Debbie is hanging on to her stuff : )

      XO Jen

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